Somewhere along the way, I stopped doing those things I am the most passionate about. I am not certain when or why that happened. I only know that it has been an extended period of time since I have done those things I used to be the most passionate about, writing and serious photography. The simple explanation could be that I got bored with it all. That may still be true but I think perhaps that it is more than that. I seem to have forgotten that there is a big difference between simply existing and actually living.
Finding My Passion Again
If I am going to find my passions again, I need to start exploring more avenues in life. I need to find out what does excite me about living again. I may choose the wrong paths along the way, but that is what learning to live again is all about.
Where the heck do I start? Is there a magic secret to it all?
Start Learning Again
One thing I do know about myself is that when I don’t have new challenges, I tend to get bored. When that happens, I just sort of go on autopilot. I go through the motions, but the excitement dissipates quickly. For me, it is like hiking the same trail over and over again. Even though you see new things each time you go, eventually it just gets old. Step one for me will be taking some random online classes to check out things I may not have considered before. Maybe even learn a new language?
Time To Stop Dreaming And Take Action
I have spent a few years now dreaming about converting my van into a camper and using it to explore more of the world around me. Weekend camping trips would do more for my current state of apathy than anything I can imagine. When I am out in nature, I am in heaven. It’s the one place I find peace within myself.
So why haven’t I done anything about it? I wish I had the answer to that. It comes down to procrastination, money, and a feeling that if I can’t do it right, why bother. Ya want the truth? They are all just excuses. If you really want something you have to actually take action. If I want to walk 5 miles, it all starts with that first step.
Get Back In Fitness and Health Mode
I have always been an all or nothing type of person. I don’t seem to have that inborn ability to find the balance in things. My goal is to find a balance with fitness that doesn’t make the task overwhelming enough that I give up. Why does this matter? Of course, health is the primary motivation behind it, but for me, it’s about mental health. When I spend time actually moving, instead of always being behind the computer screen, I just plain feel better.
Every journey starts with that first step, even knowing that there may be several course corrections along the way. It’s not enough to dream and plan. At some point, you have to take action, even if you’re not quite sure where you’re headed.